butterfly_black

if things had never changed and people never met.. would my life still suck.. most likely yes.. but it would be so empty it would not be worth living anymore..

i am going to nm on the 15th and if u see this before hand i say congrates if u don't and see it after i leave remember i tryed to warn u i am not hope .. even if i get online.. i miss my family even if they are pains in my ar-se..
when will i be back.. well that depends on my health and how much i miss chris.. sadly this is to me a mental vaca not a love fest.. besides where else can i go and beat someone up dayly?

we'll i love u all that read this and i will say hi when i get home.

Current Mood: pensive
Current Music: sad ans lonly

life sucks.

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: pain

She dresses in black
She keeps her hair simple and plain
She never wears makeup
But no one would care if she did anyway

She doesn't recall yesterday
Faces seem twisted and strange
But she always wakes up
Only to find she'd been miles away

Absence of awareness
Losing time
A lapse of perception
Losing time

Wanting to escape
She had created a way to survive
She learned to detach from herself
A behavior that kept her alive

Hope in the face of our human distress
Helps us to understand the turbulence deep inside
That takes hold of our lives
Shame and disgrace over mental unrest
Keeps us from saving those we love
The grace within our hearts
And the sorrow of our souls
Deception of frame
Vengeance of war
Lives torn apart
Losing oneself
Spiraling down
Feeling the walls closing in
A journey to find
The answers inside
Our illusive mind

-Dream Theater(Losing Time)

let it snow; let it snow; let it snow
(opps my pants are falling down)

Anyone that reads this message and thinks of themselves as my friend needs to give me a few good reasons (three or more) on why I should (A)continue writing here (B)keep your names on my messengers.. C) well after getting rid of the first to you can guess .... only two people are excluded and they know whom they are cause I've told them.

Current Mood: curious

thanks for the new year unsaid wishes everyone

Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: my will/ dream

eryne being eryne like norm...

Current Mood: lethargic

Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! In June I punched inuyashafangirl in the arm (-10 points). In January I pulled sbd1316's hair (-5 points). Last Sunday I donated bone marrow to graveofsouls in a life-saving procedure (300 points). Last month I helped forestwhispers hide a body (-173 points). In November on a flight to LA, I stole the emergency flight information card (-40 points). Overall, I've been nice (72 points). For Christmas I deserve a pony! Sincerely, butterfly_black

Current Mood: thirsty
Current Music: jingle bells

If you don't have the decency to be kind, at least be vague....

I've been learning how much I cherise these words in trying to get along with my sister-in-law.. and my soon enough to be mother-in-law. Right now I think I am getting that way with everyone though.

Current Mood: SIGH

well i had a doctors apt. today.. I hate them.
I got told not to let stupid people bug me.. and like norm that eryne was A.)so small, B.)so cute, and C.)so much hair. I have learned to stand there and nod+smile when people say those 3 things. Same when we went to the store after for a few items, avery few steps. One lady was rude to everyone till she saw Eryne and then she started to be all nice and sweet about the three things, after I watched her push a bunch of people just so she could get through.
grrr grrr grr grrrrrrrrrrr meeah

on the up side rpg is doing just fine

Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: little black cloud